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Friday, October 28, 2005

what is goin on

have not been updating..

coz realli nothing to update lo...

have been rotting thru out...

except for wednesday...

went for CO practice...

practice till 10+pm...

coz Mr Lee thought onli 9+pm onli lo..

haha!!

den went home with Peile and Samuel...

Samuel is so funny lo..

told them about Jialin's bf..

coz he got into a car accident..

and it was so bad that he have to go for physiotheraphy..

i felt so sad for Jialin and her bf...

i felt so bad oso..

wasnt able to console her too..

haiz...

anyway..

that Samuel was so excited hearing till he wanna take train with us all the way to Boon Lay..

haha!!!

went home.

rots.

today..

wake up at 1+pm..

spend almost an hour doing proposal.

suppose to go school and hand in..

in the end never..

stayed at home..

clean up my wardrobe..

so messy..

and mopped the floor too..

sian..

my brother was sick.

havin fever..

diaoz...

den my mum...

haiz..

bias till liydat..

i realli nothing to say..

when i was sick..

she will still scold me and ordered me to do this and that..

but when my brother is sick..

all he have to do is juz sleep all he wants..

he move an inch..

my mum will be so worried..

and ask how is he feeling..

what the..

haiz..

forget it..

i am always the forgotten one..

heck care le..

i already lose heart in both my parents...

my dad..

ha..

come home onli know how to scold..

and best of all..

knowin that i am coughing..

and i do have slight asthma..

and he still jolly well smoke in front of me..

when he knew that i hate it and i am coughing and have difficulties breathing..

and damn it..

i having blocked nose fer the whole day..

what kind of father is this..

told him to get away if he wanna smoke..

and he still stared back at me...

duhx..

ya...

so what if i am rude in asking u to get off..

do know ur limit ma!!!

whole family onli him always smoking..

and so inconsiderate!!!!

damn..

hate it!!!

i think i will not die of dengue fever..

i will die of lung cancer or maybe asthma attack..

all thanks to his smoking...

bloody pised..

argh!

nothing to say le.

bye bloggie...

= i no longer wanna dwell on it anymore.. i have enough.. having ppl coming to me and ask how am i.. yes.. i do feel sad and pissed... and i dunlike it.. the more the ppl come and console me... the more i hate what have happen.. the more i hate the ppl involved... includin myself.. =

= i no longer understand myself... i no longer understand my feelings.. i no longer understand what i am thinking.. i am totally confused on how i am feeling now.. what is this.. maybe it is a sign that i am moving on with life... =

= i am no longer the old me.. i can never turn back to the old me.. the old me have died.. and no longer found.. i am a new me.. a new me that even me myself dun get to realli understand.. a real me that no one will get to understand.. i am juz a weirdo.. and i love being a weirdo.. =

maybe i shld change name oso hor...

hmm...

i shall change my name..

but to what??

i duno..

hmmm...

victoria...

not nice...

i wan...

er...

*after 15mins of searching...*

ok.. forget it..